Just When I Thought I Was About To Go Under

I was helpless to prevent myself from drowning.


Such was the dilemma in all of my relationships.


I needed my relationships somehow to fill me, to fix me, to feed all of the dry and hungry parts of my soul. I needed their strength. I needed their comfort. I needed their love. Punishing and critical of myself, I was obsessed with winning other’s approval. I felt it impossible to say no to friend’s demands. I could never speak my thoughts and feelings, and I did my very best to avoid any conflict that came my way.


I could feel the undertow. The exhaustion. Pulling me under. I was slowly losing my footing. I was paralyzed by any notion of rejection or ridicule; undone by the faint echo of disappointment in other’s words.


I needed my relationships in all the ways I should have needed God. I trusted the voice of others because I could never trust my own, and I could never quiet the quivering in my mind long enough to hear Him whisper His sweet and tender words, Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matt.11:28, NIV)


I thought of how He called Peter out on the water, how He pulled Him up from the waves and steadied his weak-knee’d, weary heart. (Matthew 14:22-33)


I remembered the woman at the well to whom He spoke words of compassion, of love, and gave her blistered, calloused heart new hope, new life, new rest. (John 4:1-26)


Could He give me rest?


Oh yes, He did give me rest, and He gave me so much more.


On my healing journey, I discovered that God not only wanted me to be healed, but whole. His desire for my life was to find rest and peace. To discover in the deepest bone and marrow within me that He was my rest and peace.


God rescued me from myself. He planted me on dry land and walked with me as I healed both spiritually and emotionally. He helped grow my roots and my identity to be strong and sure. He showed me what abundance looked like in my life and my relationships.


He said, I have come that they may have life, and have it more abundantly. (John 10:10b, NASB)


Yes, abundantly. Whole. Safe. Sound. Complete. Abounding. Overflowing. Abundantly. That is His desire for you, too!


He didn’t need me to be perfect. He didn’t need me to have it all together. He doesn’t need you to have it all together either.


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My new book, Peace for a Lifetime: Embracing a Life of Hope, Wholeness, and Harmony Through Emotional Abundance, is for anyone who has ever felt hopelessly broken, who has lived life struggling to keep your head above water, who has felt weary, desperate, sinking. I share simple, practical life steps that can help you understand the hope and the life God has for you.


Will you come to Him today?


He’s reaching out His hand. He wants to pull you up and rescue you from drowning. He wants to give you indestructible rest and peace.


Reach out and take His hand, His rest. I did and I never looked back. Just when I thought I was about to go under, I was overwhelmed by His love and it changed my life forever!

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  1. It is amazing at how our emotions can silence & paralyze us. Grateful He set you free and gave you the words to share with others. May He use your words to help others!

  2. Beautiful post. Only Jesus can heal and make us whole. But he does so by God’s grace. Thanks, neighbor. Abundant blessings!

    • lisamurray

      April 11, 2016 at 8:35 AM

      Thank you for your kind words. Yes, God’s grace is what takes us from wounded and weary, to bounding and blessed! So good to have you join us here today, friend!

  3. Amazing how our hearts can make an idol out of all God’s good gifts. Thanks for sharing your awareness of this particular obstacle.
    Blessings as you share your new book with many who need that healing word!

    • lisamurray

      April 11, 2016 at 8:37 AM

      Yes, Michele!
      It seems we can take any good thing and distort it to replace God in His healing work in our lives. I hope you have a wonderful week. Be blessed, my friend!

  4. Not just healed, but whole. I like that, Lisa. There’s nothing like His rest.
    Thanks for sharing this morning. ((sweet blessings))

    • lisamurray

      April 11, 2016 at 8:32 AM

      Yes, Brenda – not just healed, He longs to each of His children to be WHOLE!!! What a blessing! Thanks for stopping by today!

  5. Oh yes, God definitely rescued me from myself! I nearly drowned – in messes of my own making and in my rebellion. I didn’t even have to ask Him – He came. He must’ve known deep in my heart how sorry I was to reject His ways. Before I understood it! Thank you for sharing such a powerful post.

    • lisamurray

      April 11, 2016 at 8:31 AM

      I love hearing how God rescues and redeems so much for us, even when we’re lost in our mess! So glad to have you here – be blessed today!

  6. Your words still resonate grace to me when I meet them again and again. I am still processing some of those nuggets from your book. Thank you for sharing this with the #GraceMoments community, Lisa.

    • lisamurray

      April 18, 2016 at 7:47 AM

      I am so glad that God is working in your life through the book! I have loved getting to know you through the team and through your new link-up – it is beautiful! Blessings, friend!

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