When You Feel Like God Has Forgotten The Desires Of Your Heart

Sometimes maybe dreams don’t come true.

 

I held tightly to Psalm 37:4b (NIV) that He will give you the desires of your heart. I had memorized that verse as a little girl and recited it faithfully as I dreamed of what my life would be.

 

Month after month I prayed, I waited. To be honest I spent much of my time begging and pleading with God. The dream of having a child was not an easy one to get past. Strollers, babies, blankets, loom around every corner. They are usually joyful experiences, witnessing the miracle of new life. Yet these were not joyful experiences for me. Each was a reminder of the dream. The vacancy in my heart that had never been filled.

 

How do I fill this? I wondered. How do you get past this most primal, basic human drive, a dream that you have carried with you since you were a little girl?

 

I didn’t know. I endured, carrying this pain with me wherever I went. Some moments were filled with a deep and wearying sorrow. Some moments, anger. There were people who didn’t understand. How could you feel the loss of something you never had? they questioned.

 

But I could. I did.

 

I could never get past God’s words to me. I believed Him when He said that He would give me the desires of my heart.

 

I didn’t know how. I didn’t know when.

 

I understood Sarah’s laughter at God’s promise to her (Genesis 18) as she could feel her body aging, as she faced the window of time slowly closing in around her. I laughed, too.

 

In time I relented to the grief I had for so long held at bay. I gave in to the waves of pain that engulfed me. Silently, loudly, deeply, desperately – I grieved.

 

In the midst of my grief I somehow wondered if God’s words were true. I questioned whether He saw me right in the midst of my brokenness. Whether He had a miracle for me, like He did for Sarah.

 

As I healed, I began to discover that God’s miracles were all around me. His provision had been there all along. I began see my stepchildren as God’s gift for me to love, to invest myself. I saw my nephews and nieces as His blessing of little miracles and joys in my life. As a professional therapist, I see each and every client I have the honor to work with as my children. I love them. I delight in them. I get to pour out God’s love to them and walk with them as they build their lives, as they heal, as they grow.

 

My healing grew as God cemented in me my identity as His beloved. As He showed me my value and worth. My healing birthed in me new passions and purposes. My healing allowed me to discover and build a life full of hope, full of wholeness, full of abundance. Above all, full of peace.

 

In my new book, Peace for a Lifetime, I not only share bits of my journey toward peace, but I also share other individual’s stories of how to cultivate a life of healing and wholeness in whatever circumstances life brings.

 

If you have ever experienced the loss of a dream, God has not forgotten or abandoned you. He loves you. He is with you right in the middle of your circumstances. He has a miracle for you. He had one for me.

 

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No, God didn’t give me a baby. Yet He has been faithful. He has fulfilled every desire of my heart. He will fulfill the desires of your heart, too.

 

I have many children. My heart is full. Abundant.

 

Whatever you dream is, with God dreams really do come true!

 

What are the desires of your heart that have not yet been fulfilled?  Leave your comment below.  I’d love to hear your journey!

 

 

About Lisa

 

I am a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, author, coffee lover, and wife. My desire is to provide a compassionate place in the midst of the stresses and struggles of life. At heart, I am just a Southern girl who loves beautiful things, whether it is the beauty of words found in a deeply moving story, the beauty of a meal cooked with love, the beauty of a cup of coffee with a friend, or the beauty seen in far away landscapes and cultures. I have fallen passionately in love with the journey and believe it is among the most beautiful gifts to embrace and celebrate. While I grew up in the Florida sunshine, I now live just outside Nashville in Franklin, TN with my husband and 16yr old Shih-tzu, Sophie.

 

 

About Peace for a Lifetime

 

In my new book, Peace for a Lifetime, I share the keys to cultivating a life that’s deeply rooted, overflowing, and abundant, the fruit of which is peace. Through personal and professional experience as a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, I discovered how to take the broken pieces of life and find indestructible peace with myself, God and with others. Through my story and other’s stories you’ll realize that you can experience the life for which you long. You can experience abundance beyond anything you can imagine. You can experience peace, not just for today, not just for tomorrow. You can experience peace —for a lifetime!

 

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14 Comments

  1. He is always enough isn’t He? When we are lacking and hurting, He is the Great I Am for us. We will never be found lacking. Thanks for sharing your heart.

    • lisamurray

      April 16, 2016 at 7:54 AM

      Thank you, Debbie! Yes, sometimes it can be hard to see or even believe He is enough, but it is still true. And then on the day you can look up and see His provision, the fullness and gratitude is simply beyond. One grateful gal:)

  2. What a beautiful story of your journey — acceptance of the plan of God for your life, even though it did not look like what you had planned and what you wanted. Such a hard choice, and yet so wise.

    • lisamurray

      April 16, 2016 at 7:56 AM

      Thank you for your kind words, Michele! Acceptance can be so difficult at times, tortuous even. Yet I always find such peace when I am able to surrender my will and accept His will for me. I hope you have a great week! Blessings, friend!

  3. Lisa, this was such a blessing to read. There is something I have been praying for God to fulfill, for years. Thank you for the sweet reminder that no matter what our circumstances may be, God has miricle for all for all of us.

    • lisamurray

      April 16, 2016 at 7:58 AM

      Thank you, Kelly! We all need reminders at times that God has a miracle, and He is working His miracle right where we are. We may not be able to see it in the middle of the darkness, and yet we can trust He is still working good for us. So glad to have you here today – stop by anytime!

  4. Thank you for sharing your struggle and journey towards peace. I am so glad you have found healing and learned to be content where you are. It is a process we all go through to live the life we are meant to lead. Blessings to you! Leigh

    • lisamurray

      April 16, 2016 at 8:00 AM

      Leigh,
      So blessed to have you join us here! Sometimes life is a struggle as we journey toward peace, but the results are always worth the struggle. God is always waiting to reveal Himself in new and powerful ways. He is awesome that way!

  5. I have definitely experienced this a few times. It is hard in the moment but we have to keep our faith in His will and timing. I love clinging to the promise that He makes all things beautiful in His time-not our own! Your book looks great!

    • lisamurray

      April 16, 2016 at 8:02 AM

      Ana,
      So glad to have you here! I think we all have times when it feels like God has forgotten us, but our faith grows stronger when we can build altars of remembrance to His goodness, His provision, His grace in our lives. He has never failed me. He will never fail any of His children. Blessings to you!

  6. Lisa, you have given much for us all to think on. It is true – God is faithful to us even when we do not get exactly what we have desired. May we remember that He knows best for us and may our hearts be open to see all that He has for us. Blessings!

    • lisamurray

      April 18, 2016 at 7:49 AM

      This can be a hard truth, Joanne. It certainly didn’t come quickly or easily for me, but God has still brought me exactly where He wants me on my journey. He has been nothing but faithful to me. So glad to have you stop by today! Blessings!

  7. God often grants the dreams in our hearts in different ways. So thankful He’s given you peace.

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